always happens to me!!!
and omg it hurts like shit i know everyone got this before hahaha.



i would totally eat this wallet.



if only i can escape from it all.
screw the exams and my future and just..

be happy. and free. for once.

maybe freedom can only be achieved after working for it.

but dont i deserve trust?
you should trust my judgement.
and please do not speak of my friends in that way.

i love my friends and they are all good, honest, trustworthy and sincere people.
i make my own choices TYVM.
you're restricting me of someone who means the world to me.
he is in everyway a good man, a kind and thoughtful one.
an understanding one, and someone whom i can TALK to.

it's finally nice to have someone who shares the same emotions and reactions as me.
someone who makes me laugh.
and i love it when people make me laugh.
isn't happiness what everyone wants?

my husband and the man i'm going to live with the rest of my life is going to make me happy.
i have found someone who not only makes me laugh naturally,
but has an awesomely unique personality that i totally connect with.
there's so much connection and click-ness that everything just falls into place
we communicate well and he totally understands me for who i am.
for whatever flaws i have, he talks to me about it.
for whatever things i find fault in, i talked to him about it.
it's US and isnt it GOOD we settle things in a proper manner?!
he totally trusts me and encourages me.
he teaches me and if he can, he will be by my side no matter what.

and you know what?
he loves me for who i am.
and i love him for who he is.
because we're JUST LIKE THAT.
no change, no compromise, no unhappiness.
but connection, chemistry, spark, communication, common interests
and love.

there are a million things you havent got to know about him.
you havent understnd the guy i pour my heart out all the time.
the guy who would never hurt me and cares for me, just because he does.
not for some ulterior motive.
the guy who is totally honest with me and would never lie to me
the one who is so sweet and thoughtful, so sincere, and lets his real personality show.
not some fake persona to try to scheme things for one purpose or sth.
the guy who taught me tolerance and patience,
how to feel loved and want to care even more.
the one who adapted for my sake, and showed he was really sincere.
not the possessive one you think. not some random guy i knew,

but the one who grew and matured, together with me.
who is so real and honest, not like the others who put on a false front.

thank you sexyminion for letting me to get to know you
and i pray real hard for your acceptance and trust in my judgement.
and i really hope that our determination and his honesty will shine through
one day, even if we faced problems, no matter the ending in our rls
i wouldnt regret this.
but i want to experience and just, be accepted for what i feel.
please? it would make me so much happier.
it's not a mistake, it's an experience and a risk (and everything has a risk)
if we humans dont risk, then we aren't living life!
it's a joy. it's what i want. it's my choice and it's love.

pleassssse??!

RAINED @ 12:08 AM